This is how I feel…. sad but true…. a fact of every day life. I haven’t posted for a while due to a new job and the brain draining of having to learn new things at my age. Which prompted this blog in so many directions (well at least 2). The strange thing is I read a post from http://irishkatie.wordpress.com and she had written a very similar blog as to what was invading my head space the last few days.
So to be as brief as possibly, for those of you that are interested. I think I may have over posted myself (vision of me in an envelope being shoved into a post box) but even as I write this I feel I will contradict… **Sighs** I started blogging as a release for my writing. I purchased Journals which sadly sit in a drawer in the coffee table. The blogging was/is my outlet for my feelings..my thoughts…my incessant desire to write. How interesting are they (I mean really) to anyone but myself? Is it because I seek praise when writing? Do I long for comments about what I have written? Or am I reading too much into this? I can’t help but think is this an ‘ego’ situation?
I have made virtual friends (I hope) since starting this, I enjoy reading the blogs that I follow, and I do receive satisfaction from comments on pieces that I have written, but I think maybe “less is more”? Can anyone see what I am trying to say here? Have I been overly abundant with my posts? Even with that question I feel that I am asking followers or writers to say “No no Jenny you haven’t”…and please that is not why I asked it.
I’m at a round-a-bout…or more-so a T intersection do I turn left and slow down, or turn right and write the same as I was?
Or do I just say to hell with it, I shall write what I want when I want, if others read, like, follow so be it?
Does anyone else have this dilemma?
In closing because this was going to be brief (and when you’re a talker like I am it’s tough to pull the reins in) I’m tired, as I said, new job and my head is spinning trying to learn the new procedures, computer programs and what the job entails. I am my own worst enemy…I frustrate myself for not learning what is to be learnt in a matter of days since starting and it makes me disbelieve myself and what I am capable of.
I have probably bored every one by now so I shall end. What ever comments (if any) are made about this post I will be interested… though I am not writing it for anyone to respond.
I guess I am searching for the …shall I continue answer (knowing in my heart I love doing this and will continue even though my “stats” wont be high this day or the next) and I am doing it too please me as it is what I love doing. Now I have to think of ‘tags’ that will attract the readers…. and I question even that should it be so..