I want

I want to play mum again, have my girls rely on me
not grown up and independent

I want to be able to dress them in pretty clothes and
do their hair

I want to be able to guide them when danger approaches
to hold their hand or them hold mine

I want to see their beaming smiles when I tell them how
they have made me laugh

I want to be able to give them the cuddles that I did when
they were tiny

I want to hear their problems and ask me for advice
and accept what I say

I want the closeness we shared, the giggles we had, the
times when we would dance

I want to feel that they can come to ‘mum’ when they
are troubled or upset

I want to play mum again when we shared so many
special moments

I want to be involved in their lives instead of being
the mum who is ‘just there’

I want to be thought of wise and able to help them
in time of need

I want to have them hug me and tell me they love me
just because they want to

I want to know that I have brought them up to be
beautiful young women

I want to know that when I’m gone that they have
thought me as someone special
I want….or am I wanting too much