For this Challenge by Picture it & Write, we can either follow the theme go to
http://ermiliablog.wordpress.com/2013/03/03/picture-it-and-write-special/#respond
or create your own version of the picture below. I have chosen my own theme.
My fingers shake above the keyboard, my nose runs, yet I just sit here sniffing, like an infant, wiping the end of my nose with the back of my hand, instead of reaching for a tissue from the box in front of me.
The letters on the keys are blurry, they fade out, then come into focus.
I know where each letter sits, I don’t care.
I feel my heart beating loudly inside my chest, my breath is fast, shallow.
Every now and then my chest rises sharply but falls just as quickly, as I try desperately to hold back more tears.
Five times now, I have counted them, a tear drops, hits a key and sinks into a gap between the letters.
At least the letter is clearer.
Why has it come to this, that I sit here, my body shaking, stomach hurting, as if someone has punctured my intestines with a six inch blade, I feel nauseous, my body fights to hold the expulsion of vomit.
I will myself … do this, move your hand to the right, hit that damn enter key.
Like the letters, my view seems clearer.
Enter
“God what have I done”.
For
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The post enter regret. My I know that well!
Hi J2, I think we all have been there 😦 Thanks for popping in – appreciated.
I have felt this was before. You did a brilliant job with the emotions here.
Thank you Bo.. a feeling we have all experienced and hated. One wouldn’t think we could actually be scared of an ‘enter’ key prior to computers! x
I have this kind of anxiety over [Publish]. Hundreds of thousands of words lost to [Move to Trash].
Oh Anne, yes even a computer crash, or something not saved… there is sometimes a very good reason to simply write and not type! 🙂 … thank you for visiting & commenting.
Wonderful emotions and wonderful story!
Thank you Chookas, I actually sat here willing myself to feel sick and cry as I wrote…. ho hum do I ever get involved in writing.. 😦 xxx
Another superb ending!! Such an emotional build – lovely image when the key becomes clearer with the tear on top of it. Those are the details that make writing so real. Nice one!!
Gabs bless ya’ and thank you for reading and commenting. I envisaged a tear hitting the blurry key and then that came to me, I love it when readers can relate or see what I am trying to say. 🙂 xx
Wow! Super powerful. You conveyed the emotions so well, the anxiety that the individual is feeling. Fantastic interpretation of the picture and great execution. Thanks for contributing this week to Picture it & write! 🙂
– Ermisenda
Ermilia – I thank you- your comments mean a great deal to me and all the writers. I love your site and will continue to contribute as long as you keep posting pics 🙂 Appreciate the kind words you have said – thank you!
You created real tension there…and the process you went through to create that tension is absolutely fascinating..as read in comments. Pure art!
Yepirate I am flabbergasted by your comment. On reflection, I perhaps may be a ‘method writer’ to a certain degree, for I do try and wholly put myself in the place of the person or event that I write about. This is such a compliment and I thank you so much.
mmmn my problem is hitting publish without much thought ^^ loved this .line : a tear drops, hits a key and sinks into a gap between the letters… wonderful
thank you so much kz – I do experience the same doubt after editing 10 or so times, the cursor hovers and in the end I just have to say damn it..go with it… 🙂 x
Omg your words touch my heart! Beautiful heartbreaking piece of writing!
How very sweet – thank you for feeling that way and visiting.
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