I have felt Motherhood (just a bit of nostalgia)

I had that inner and outer glow when a life grew inside me and felt small fists and kicks from tiny feet
I watched as my stomach jumped with an internal cricket beneath its skin
I cried at movies when there was no need and laughed for the same reason
I read books about to how to raise your kids, only to heed my inner voice
I dressed in clothes that had to stretchย and donned unflattering 'tent's'
I wish now for T-Shirts that showed the world, I was to become a mum
I cringed with cramps from over-doing
I sulked at the sight of wine, that had to wait for another day, or the cigarette I couldn't have
I smiled at hands that wanted to feel the life within
I thought of names, only to decide after they were born, as the decision was at our first meeting
I felt the nurses as they probed to assess dilation
I squinted at fluorescent lights that shone brightly on my bared body in the room, without humiliation
I felt the pain as it hammered through me, time and time again and wondering if it would cease
I shuddered as I felt the needle in my back
I winced being told one more push, feeling the sweat trickle off my brow and hoped that this would end
BUT
I remember hearing a babies cry
I remember my tears letting go as she was given to me to hold ~ my cricket
I do remember becoming a mother for the first time
and I remember ~ as if it was only yesterday

ยฉjmtacken Nov 2013

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43 thoughts on “I have felt Motherhood (just a bit of nostalgia)

  1. so beautiful jen, you’ve expressed what makes all the pain and challenges worthwhile. it is more than enough, and even though there are times when we wonder, it will always return and be worth it once again in time. hugs ) beth

  2. I love that your decision about names was at the first meeting. Mine too. It’s such a huge responsibility naming another human being! I think having everything preplanned as is the trend now, is a real shame. But that’s just me ๐Ÿ™‚

    • I totally agree Jude, we toyed with names, but waited till both girls were born in fact the 2nd Kayla Jade – (ex hubby) said Jade’s not a name it’s a stone and we had to ask several Nurses before he was convinced ๐Ÿ˜€ xx

  3. smiles…its one thing us guys miss out on…that beautiful connection that mothers always have with their children after spending those first 9 months together…i think its cause we could not handle the birth part…ha…but it is a beautiful thing…

  4. awww only the experience us women get to have. ๐Ÿ™‚ I embrace each memory and I was the type that wore t-shirts proudly showing my growing belly.
    Lovely piece.

  5. You’ve brought me back to my moment of glory. Did you ‘recognize’ your son the moment you first saw him?
    I cried too in relief, recognition and the reality of the moment. Thank you for the reminder. ๐Ÿ˜›

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