I had that inner and outer glow when a life grew inside me and felt small fists and kicks from tiny feet
I watched as my stomach jumped with an internal cricket beneath its skin
I cried at movies when there was no need and laughed for the same reason
I read books about to how to raise your kids, only to heed my inner voice
I dressed in clothes that had to stretch and donned unflattering 'tent's'
I wish now for T-Shirts that showed the world, I was to become a mum
I cringed with cramps from over-doing
I sulked at the sight of wine, that had to wait for another day, or the cigarette I couldn't have
I smiled at hands that wanted to feel the life within
I thought of names, only to decide after they were born, as the decision was at our first meeting
I felt the nurses as they probed to assess dilation
I squinted at fluorescent lights that shone brightly on my bared body in the room, without humiliation
I felt the pain as it hammered through me, time and time again and wondering if it would cease
I shuddered as I felt the needle in my back
I winced being told one more push, feeling the sweat trickle off my brow and hoped that this would end
BUT
I remember hearing a babies cry
I remember my tears letting go as she was given to me to hold ~ my cricket
I do remember becoming a mother for the first time
and I remember ~ as if it was only yesterday
©jmtacken Nov 2013
Ramblings From A Mum 
Excellent Jenny you have capture the emotion of motherhood so very well.
why thank you Michael – nothing like re-living… easier to write than experience with some of it though ~ smiles
What a magnificent experience! Beautifully expressed. 🙂
thank you so much anmol – obviously in a bit of a ‘motherly’ mood tonight 🙂
Perfectly written. HUGS
hello darling – thank you {hugss} back to you x
🙂 You are welcome. I just woke up does that meen you are soon to sleep 🙂
I was going to say Good morning – but never sure lol. No it’s 9.26pm Saturday night here. 🙂
OK 5:27 AM here on Sat. Morning
“MORNING”!!!!! 🙂 Rise & Shine! Coffee on?! 😀 x
Nite to you and yes almost one cup down 🙂
😀 good hope you have a wonderful day ahead sweetness. x
Thanks so much I have to call in a few more plants to greenhouse and then bright and early Sunday Morning I will be in a Barber Shop my friend owns passing out the gorgeous Poinsettia to all who supported our Garden Club I can’t wait to see how they like them as they are amazing plants. Monday I will deliver to businesses that will not be open tomorrow. The other three woman in club will run plants to businesses tomorrow while I get the people from town who pop in. Then I see surgeon for shoulder so nice to spend 2 days with flowers tropical ones at that boy is it cold here 🙂
Poinsettia’s are gorgeous, mum has some from last year still in pots in her lounge room. You do sound like you will be busy. Hope your Doctor’s visit goes ok – we have our 1st day of Summer tomorrow – in Melbourne- that could mean anything! 🙂
🙂 Thanks and OMG we just have our first blast of winter get out that bathing suit and get some sun for me 🙂 I am going to try to hold off on any repair of shoulder and see if it will get better with rest this winter 🙂
I shall – well in the privacy of my backyard perhaps 😉 – don’t leave your shoulder too long though hun x
I know I just hate winter and last I need is pain from surgery 🙂 I sadly have had my fill 🙂 Thanks HUGS
so beautiful jen, you’ve expressed what makes all the pain and challenges worthwhile. it is more than enough, and even though there are times when we wonder, it will always return and be worth it once again in time. hugs ) beth
Thanks Beth ~ I think at times I would much rather have the pregnancy and not the after… smiles. No all of it..every minute … is what being a mum is all about. {hugss} x
yes, i agree. in some ways the pain can be much greater when your children are older, and the effects much longer, but the joy to make it all worthwhile will return, and will be felt much deeper, mark my words.
I am taking your words and running with them lovely… let us hope ~ smiles x
I love that your decision about names was at the first meeting. Mine too. It’s such a huge responsibility naming another human being! I think having everything preplanned as is the trend now, is a real shame. But that’s just me 🙂
I totally agree Jude, we toyed with names, but waited till both girls were born in fact the 2nd Kayla Jade – (ex hubby) said Jade’s not a name it’s a stone and we had to ask several Nurses before he was convinced 😀 xx
smiles…its one thing us guys miss out on…that beautiful connection that mothers always have with their children after spending those first 9 months together…i think its cause we could not handle the birth part…ha…but it is a beautiful thing…
thanks Brian – no somehow I don’t think you men could handle it – not when I’ve seen what your’e like with the common cold! 🙂 Thank you for popping over.
awww only the experience us women get to have. 🙂 I embrace each memory and I was the type that wore t-shirts proudly showing my growing belly.
Lovely piece.
thanks Anja I would of worn them, but when I was pregnant – they weren’t really fashionable, most women wanted to hide their tummies …so sad 😦 Thank you for reading.
You’ve brought me back to my moment of glory. Did you ‘recognize’ your son the moment you first saw him?
I cried too in relief, recognition and the reality of the moment. Thank you for the reminder. 😛
I had 2 girls darling, but that’s ok – I didn’t mention in the piece. Yes I recognised both of them, after carrying, singing and talking to them for 9 months – I only hope they recognised me 🙂 I loved being pregnant…sadly those days are gone – now I wait impatiently to be a Nanna. Thanks you Tess. xx
My apologies.
Pregnancy had me feeling the best I’ve ever been.
tsk tsk no apologies required young lady 🙂 x
Exactly. Except I never had the needle in my back 😉 xx
I cried out for it – it was wonderful wheeeeeeee 😉 xx
Wiping a little tear here. Reliving seven. All different. All unique. Just like all our babes. Wonderfully done, Jen.x
aww – thank you darling – you are such a brave woman to have had seven – my sanity was lost with the 2! 😉 xx
Yes – I remember what you describe, as well.
Somehow we never will forget – will we? Even the pain of childbirth – it vanishes straight after they are born ~ but in the back of our minds~ we still remember vaguely… xx
awww, special memories.
that they are 🙂 xx
Just Beautiful.
thanks lovely xx
Ohhhhhh….that touched me so close to my heart….thank you for that beautiful description of motherhood! Love xxx
Hmmmm just for you 🙂 xxx