I breathe the breath of a tortured soul
it burns my stomach lining
clouding my retinas
I stand with no direction
The consequences so great
my mind won’t rest
I hold to what I need to believe
My disposition complex
it wilts amongst rationalisation
I fight with warrior strength
unarmed without weapons
as the battle is within
I long for resolution
to lay down these invisible swords
that cut my soul
Copyright JMTacken 9.7.14
I hope that soon I shall be able to write with more lightheartedness.
I see this is a battle of wills and heart.
That it is Tess, sadly. x
Changed…and I knew what you meant ~ smiles x
🙂 Thanks.
Your theme continues Jenny. I too hope there will be resolution in the near future. Take care.
Unfortunately yes Michael ~ thank you.
you will get there….you are walking a very hard path…and one where you will second guess yourself…and def the battle is with yourself as much as anything…strength to you….and hopes that it passes soon enough…
Appreciated Brian, thank you so much, it has just escalated this morning…
Beautifully written but obviously a very rough time for you. Hopefully you can get lighthearted again for your sake, but don’t apologize for the intensity of your feelings. Keep writing and I pray things get better for you soon. 🙂
Thank you so much CC, I appreciate your kindness and thoughts. Hopefully one day and soon I can, but what is happening now will be in my life forever. xx
Just hugssssss
Thank you xx
Nicely done. 🙂
Thank you GC.
poetry comes from the soul and sometimes the soul is in a dark place 🙂
Yes it sometimes is~ thanks Yvonne. x
you are a warrior of the highest order and i look forward to a time of peace for you, jen –
I don’t know about that Beth, another battle today, actually last 4 days. I’ll email and thank you. xx
My thoughts are i with you at this heavy time. God will help you and your daughter through . Take heart and remember all things must pass. I hope that does not sound trite. Xxx
No it doesn’t sound trite at all Willow and I thank you for being here and supporting me. Unfortunately it is going to get a lot worse before it gets better. Hugs & love to you xxx
Well just remember I am here for you. Xxx
xx thank you
Oh God Jen, to lay down the swords I didn’t even want to pick up!!! But I must hold on for now. Oh geez that hit hard. Hugs to YOU from me. Seems we both need them right now.
Very much so,this is the beauty of WP ~ so many people lend support truly amazing. Let’s hold on tight xxx
Holding on Jen. WP is a great source of comfort, acceptance, and understanding.
Incredibly powerful writing!! 🙂 🙂
Such a compliment thank you Helen x
Lovely write!
Thank you DN for reading and your kind comment.
Your description of how the inner torture affects your stomach and all the way to your retinas, is very well written, Jen. I can feel the pain, oozing through the words, into the wires that connect us both, Jen. You and I together, maybe(?) we can pull something off! I am after all “Robin” who not only was Batman’s partner, but have gained strength from my own battles fought! You are a great writer, sometimes ‘angst’ and ‘pain’ make the most beautiful stories, poetry and songs, too! Thanks for sharing and hopefully, knowing we are ‘with you’ makes some of the load lighter… Hugs, Robin
You brought a smile Robin, being Batman’s partner. I know so many of us have gone through many battles in our lives and through the help of writing and connecting with readers and writers, we gather strength to somehow get through. Pain brings many of my words, for good or bad it is really difficult for me to bring myself to write any other way right now. I thank you for your support, kindness words and for reading, I will see a light eventually and having you and others pushing me towards it means a great deal. Hugs xxx
Hello darling, it is your warrior strength that holds you together through these tough times. I imagine every day is a battle, a battle of words and will, a battle that cuts you deep, causes you heartbreak and misery. Writing about pain is incredibly cathartic, so please write my sweet, release the pain. Peace will come. Not today, not tomorrow, but soon. I send my love to you…
xxxx
Thank you gorgeous lady, I just have so much in my head, I’m finding it difficult to write. I don’t think I’ve ever been this way. Thank you for your words of love and support, you mean the world to me. Hugs & love xxxx
Very glad to have you, even for a moment, feeling the part of a hero, my partner fighting against the evils in the world, or close to home… xo
Thank you lovely xx
I think the best that any of us can do, is consider our circumstances. Make our decisions, informed decisions. Something I do sometimes, is sit down and write out the choices I have. Pro’s one side, Cons on the other side. Weigh up the possible results, try and make the one that will have the best possible result – taking into account all involved.
Often, what we think are positives (in the immediate or short term future) can really be long term cons.
One thing that you know, is this; – this time, this pain, the heartache will not go on forever. There’s comfort in that thought. In the meantime, pull in your support network and be kind to yourself.
You are in our prayers.
ML
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Thank you ML, it is wonderful to have the support of so many on WP. Pros and cons are a little difficult with this situation though, as it virtually is a roller coaster, so what may be logic and appropriate today..sadly may not be tomorrow. I am writing a post about the ups and downs, we are going through. I’m not sure if I shall post it or not later, as it’s a very long read, but I’m ‘getting it out’ which is my therapy in a small way. Thank you sweet for caring. xx
So true Jen, some things are much much easier said than done!
Read soon xox
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Miss Lou
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Oh Jen – I stand with no direction. That is the worst of all…feeling like no matter which way you go it won’t lead you to where you ‘need’ to be. This is so beautiful, albeit heartbreaking. Sometimes the only thing we can do is nothing. Give your precious soul a break. As for the sadness of your writing – if it comes from a place of truth, (while I of course want you to be happy again) it is always powerful and honorable. Never apologize for that. hugs and love. ~Karen~
A beautiful comment K, yes the sign posts have indeed fallen, hopefully I will gain enough strength to pick them up to find which way to go again. Thank you for words of strength and encouragement, appreciated, as you know. Hugs x ❤
So strong. The imagery of invisible swords is very stark and makes this all the more painful.
Thank you Sarah, I’m glad that my words evoked the imagery. Hugs and thank you so much for reading so many of my posts.