Again it has been sometime since I chatted. My poetry comes in dribs and drabs. I have so much in my mind, yet nothing, if that makes sense?
I have been at Mr. S’s now since the 21st July of thereabouts.
Last week I conducted a Service for Australia’s High Commissioner to Mauritius , she was only 51. I had her brother in law, run out from the Cafe after the Service he had tears, he gave me a big bear hug and thanked me. It was a little awkward, as no one has shown me that amount of gratitude before, but I walked to my car with the biggest smile on my face.
Daughter K, is still living in the shared house. We have only seen each other three times, since I moved out from the penguins. My house was sold and settlement was last Friday. As I was driving home after the Service, I received a text saying it was completed. I cried, just knowing the finality of it. The 16 years of that house, my home with my girls. The relationships, the memories.
I have to say I miss K , 27 years under the same roof (apart from about 14 months) I seem to be having shades of the empty nest syndrome again. There have been phone calls, when she has had meltdowns, there have been phone calls, where she has been rational. This is how it will always be, until she is better.
We are attending a full day Seminar in October on Borderline Personality Disorder. There will be many specialists attending and I am happy she wants to accompany me.
Personally, I’m half happy, the bottom half I guess, as I still worry about how K is coping. I have to learn to let these feelings go and if and when the case arises, then I check my feelings and reaction, instead of inwardly anticipating, as this only causes anxiety.
I have another Service on Friday and one for next Tuesday and today I completed another 2 assessments, 4 more to go, before the Institution advises if I have passed the course, then for the Attorney Generals Department, to say yes or no, depending on how many Celebrants are around right now.
So that’s about it for this chit-chat. I hope to get my sense of humour back soon, if you read this without yawning, I thank you.
PS. I did write about the penguins, but it somehow didn’t show, so for those who have asked. Pop has cataracts and glaucoma, which has been caught early and one eye has been operated on, the other will next week. Mum is doing ok, I will be visiting them tomorrow after packing the picnic lunch to get there ~ smiles.