The spirit side session # 2

Tonight was my 2nd visit to the Circle, though after our meditation had finished instead of being in a circle, to hear from those that connected with spirt side, we lined our chairs in a row.
I did not get the purple third eye vision as strongly and in fact (I was willing it not to happen) to see what would occur. As soon as Carol reached the part of inviting our spirit guide into our Aura, the purple appeared, but only very faintly.  My girlfriend once again connected, as did everyone that stood up.
The session was running slightly overtime it was 9.40 when Carol (Head Medium) asked me if I wanted to get up, before I knew it I was. Bearing in mind this was only my second visit, I stood in front of the group. My mind was blank, I stood there like a dumb bunny, I can honestly say that I stood there thinking  ‘for *bleeps* sake Jen think of someone, anyone, anything’. Carol asked male or female energy. I blurted female. She asked vibration (sister,grandparents etc) I blurted Auntie, passed with breast cancer and 2 children. Then all I could ‘see’ was blonde hair, but I didn’t say anything. Carol then stood next to me.
From what I was told prior to standing up (from the lady next to me) who has been doing this for some time, is that Carol also picks up on what we see/hear and if you’re ‘spinning a tale’ (to be polite) she will know.  Now at this stage before Carol intervened, I had 3 people that connected with Auntie passing from breast cancer. When I said 2 children it got down to one. I said 2 girls, he said no a boy and a girl.
Carol said I see the letter P – the daughter was called Paige. She said I see a postman or something to do with letters, the Auntie was married to a postman. I was still standing there with my left leg shaking uncontrollably for some reason. Nerves don’t usually get the better of me in front of an audience, but I couldn’t stop it.
Carol asked me if I had anything else. I said all I saw was blonde hair and then blankets entered by head. This gentleman who is very olive skinned said his Aunt’s hair was blonde. The blankets? His partner said last night they were tossing on and off blankets all night..
Make of it what you will, I am still confused and second guess myself… but to have 8 ‘items’ for want of better terminology…can that be a coincidence?
Till next week
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