Pop my dad I love you

October 7, 2012 by ramblingsfromamum

Please don’t tell mum you think that you’re dying – Mum told me today that’s what you said.

I don’t want to hear those words

Don’t say you think your life’s at an end – those words cut to deep.

I watch you slowly find your balance when you stand & that a short walk makes you weary – I see the strength you once had is gone & I see the frustration in your eyes because of it. I see the tremors in your hands which I know is hard for you to understand.

But I don’t want to hear those words

I see the changes in you, I see that my dad has grown older – don’t make me cry by saying what you did today. I love my nick-name Ginger though I don’t know why I have it – I love the bond we have which has grown stronger throughout the years.

But I don’t want to hear those words

I look at you & think of all our laughter & our tears – the advice you have imparted – the guidance that you have given – I’m your daughter “your girl” & I’m here for you – you know that…right? – I know this can’t be easy for you – growing old never is & I wish I could do more.

But I don’t want to hear those words

I love & cherish you so much & it hurts me to know those words were spoken – it frightens me of what will eventually come – but that time is not yet with us – so I can only ask that you try not to be disheartened or make apologies for your age, for I will be your support, be it just my hand to hold you steady or a hug to show how much I care.