Not 2 peas in a pod

Pre Teen
Comic tenacious smiling reclusive angry
dancing queen mimic
words to every song known
lonely hated school

Teen
Rebellious angry heart of gold
illusory cunning madam
quick tempered and easily hurt
lover of reading

Now
Procrastinator unconcerned attaches softhearted
untidy room indecisive
lost her way wanting friends
learning trying fighter 

Pre Teen
Friends hard to make sad
strong willed temper
perfection a must consuming
a developing artist

Teen
Insecurity self doubt fitting in
dancer messy room
superior grades university studied committed
frenzied worrier afraid

Now
Confidence on the outside shines
inside uncertainty lingers
many friends achiever hard worker
sentimental passionate strong

The above was a challenge set to me by Amber from http://sensuousamberville.wordpress.com. This was the most difficult post that I have ever written. It feels scattered but the challenge was 3 stanzas, 4 lines each, 1st line 5 words, 2nd line 3 and so forth, for 3 stages. Thank you Amber – this indeed was a hard challenge. Sorry if this doesn’t make sense to those that read..

I am describing my 2 daughters or trying to….and yes they both still have messy rooms.

Metamorphosis

Gossamer veil before me sliver of light
peers furtively through trees that have seen a hundred years
absence of day with steps I place, now in sudden fear
not knowing of where I go or where I’ve been

disconsolate foot steps, crackle leaves beneath my feet
forest of deadened branches hang eerie, blackened sleep
who am I, where am I, behind or in front
cautiously tread direction lost steps to find myself

one foot wrong shall I be left in a world I do not want
one foot right will I find myself forgoing the life I’ve led
brush what my eyes before me see, start anew without the ink
trunks of deadness, branches hang life to them is lost

renew yourselves, birth new buds like I must do at life
banish cobwebs of my fears, eradicate self doubt
step into the daylight, know who you are and why
blackened forest take your leave, be reborn like I